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However, when I returned home after nine days of 'ballerina-ing,' I found my Cerissa Rose bonsai nearly dead. Parched soil, leaves brown and falling off, even a tiny bud dried up before it could bloom. I couldn't help but see it as a tangible example of the change in my priorities. I worried that in my absence other priorities had been forgotten.
Recently, I told this story to a friend. I was expecting a lecture about responsibilities, about letting go of old priorities and moving on to new ones,... but instead, after I finished the story of the ballet and bonsai, he asked if the tree made it. I paused again and then answered happily "Yes! Well I did need to cut back the dead parts, but it's alive." And then he said, "Well see? The point is, it survived. You're doing everything now."
He's right. You can shift the balance of your life without becoming totally unhinged. There are false starts and beginnings. There are losses and endings. There are great stories in which we only play a tiny role, and mysteries that never add up. The question becomes: How much do you believe you can have and how open you are to getting it?
"Once you get over the fear, it's a cinch," she said. --Monique Duval