Monday, August 30, 2010

Transitions are hard...

Today I am learning apexes of leaves...today I am applying for jobs at nurseries...today I am applying to get licensed as a Certified Horticulturalist....today I'm trying to finish my first published article about tomatoes.  (Writing references correctly is a lot harder than I remember or maybe  I just really like to cut and paste.  Maybe I forget how to use the MLA handbook. Maybe I lost mine or more likely....my copy is outdated.)  Today I'm trying to imagine a holiday season filled with Poinsettias and potting soil instead of Tchaikovsky...Soon when people ask me if I 'dance' for the Washington Ballet, I will have to say, "I used to."  I can't get that to sit right with me.  Their eyes won't twinkle the way they do now.  No ones eye's twinkle when you say, "I'm a ballet teacher," at least not the way they do when they find out that you are actually someone who goes on stage, someone who 'goes on their toes.' Soon I will not be 'a ballerina.' That will be different.  In his book, The Chosen, Chaim Potok wrote, "Beginnings are hard."  Beginnings are hard, and so are endings. I'm not sure I'm ready.

3 comments:

  1. "Change is hard because people overestimate the value of what they have—and underestimate the value of what they may gain by giving that up." — James Belasco and Ralph Stayer from their book Flight of the Buffalo.

    One of my favorite quotes. It's really true.

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  2. Hmmm, yes...but I wonder if Belasco and Stayer were 'stage' people. You can hardly overestimate how great it is to get paid to be a stage person. It is difficult to find anything that is going to match it...unless it's parenthood, which isn't something you can achieve on your own, so i'm not sure it counts....

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  3. Actually,...i found something more zen to say,

    "Far and away the best prize that life has to offer is the chance to work hard at work worth doing."

    Theodore Roosevelt

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